Truly Unforgettable!!!

Well.. I should have written this post technically 26 days earlier.. My cat prep has been taking all my time and i barely find time for other works.. I want to reach out to the best colleges in India and make my future.. That has been biggest goal for a long time now..

Hmmm... So coming to TCS.. A company which i m very proud of.. Not jus bcos i m workin in it.. but bcos of the perseverance, creativity, passion and excellence that the Tatas have put in to be the biggest empire in India.. I have no doubt they will continue so.. i can say hands dwon that the best thing i did in TCS is to read some books abt the Tatas and their legacy.. and i m waiting to write a big post about them..

Its been said that off late TCS is the main profit maker for the Tatas and i can proudly say that i have made my minuscule contribution towards it.. Oh come on, you dont have to whine that i m workin in a support proj which barely needs any experience.. I agree with it in totality but a contribution is a contribution!!! how small or big it may be!!! he he..

Hmmm.. to be frank i dunno how an year went past.. I still feel i m yet to work in TCS.. But alas, so soon my ILP in Trivandrum got over.. My stint at Talking technologies got over.. My dog days behind the HR's for clerance has got over and the experiences with those guys which took me so close to losing my job.. !!! i will never forget the day when they made me sign a new agreement stating that "I m liable for termination if i do not clear the tests".. My god it gave me those chills down my spine.. and when i think abt it now, i couldn stop smiling at the fact that my tcs journey has been a very venturous one..

If not for Harish and Vamshi, i would say that my TCS journey was such a bore.. Thanks to their support and their being beside, it gave me the gusto to wake up the next day to office!!! Atleast my going to office has some purpose!!!

Hmmm... basically i m not the pro-IT guy who would do anythin for my job.. My dreams are else where and for me TCS has always been a make shift location until i do MBA in a good college.. As i was very clear in it, i dint pressure myself too much and was very happy with watever came my way.. I dint want those challenging jobs which would swallow my time nor did i shun the mediocre works which came my way.. i just did things which would make me survive.. I dont want to be a "new" face in the crowd who are suffering from the agony of not having a job.. I dint want to add a number to that crowd as i m already one in a crowd in TCS.. As of now i m 1 in 1,41,648 TCSers.. That is more than a decent crowd!!!

After being in bench for almost 6 months, i m now a part of TARGET project under support.. My work is basically is to clear the ticket Q which i do with ease.. Things are goin fine for now and i like being in this project for now.. Lets see where the ship takes me..

To be candid, bench period was much more fun with jam packed food courts, neatly maintained lush green lawns and good libraries!!!

(to be contd...)

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This is one topic which i hav been plannin to write for many months now.. Atlast i have made myself write it..

Pentagram..
The word pentagram comes from the Greek: "pente means 5 (as in Pentagon). "Gram" comes from the Greek verb graphein, "to write".

It refers to a five pointed star, or "any figure of five lines." It is most often used to refer to a symmetrical, five pointed star, with equal sides, drawn either with a single line or with two closely spaced parallel lines. Their overall shape is like the decoration on the top of many Christmas trees, and the stars on the American flag.

A Pentacle is generally surrounded by a circle.. Also called the circle of life..

Pentacles are of 2 types:

• Upright pentagram
• Inverted pentagram

Upright pentagram:

• They are among the most widely used religious symbols.
• They were used by ancient Pagans, ancient Israelites, Christians, magicians, Wiccans and others.
• This symbol apparently originated as the symbol of a Goddess who was worshiped over an area which extends from present-day England to Egypt and beyond. Her name was Kore (a.k.a. Car, Cara, Carnac, Ceres, Core, Kar, Karnak, Kaur, Kauri, Ker, Kerma, Kher, Kore, Q're, etc.).

This was also interpreted to fit in the Vitruvian man, Leonardo Da Vinci’s masterpiece, perfectly..

From her alternative Roman name Ceres have evolved many English words: cardiac, carnal, cereal, core, corn, and kernel.

Usage:

• The five points of the pentagram have been interpreted as representing the five wounds of Christ (2 wrist, 2 ankle and 1 side).
• The Roman Emperor Constantine used the pentagram in his seal and amulet.
• It has been referred to as the Star of Bethlehem
• It was used to symbolize the star which allegedly led three Zoroastrian astrologers to the baby Jesus; it was called the Three Kings' star.
• The English warrior Sir Gawain, a nephew of King Arthur, adopted the pentagram as his personal symbol and placed it on his shield. It appeared in gold on a red background. The five points symbolized "the five knightly virtues - generosity, courtesy, chastity, chivalry and piety."
• Tarot cards originally had a suit of coins or discs. These were changed in the 19th century to pentacles when the Tarot became associated with the Kabbalah. They eventually became the suit of diamonds in modern playing cards.
• It has been widely used by past Christians as a protective amulet.
• During the burning times when the Christian church burned alive or hung hundreds of thousands of innocent people, the meaning of the pentagram changed. It began to symbolize a goat's head or the devil in the form of Baphomet. "The folk-symbol of security - for the first time in history - was equated with evil and was called the Witch's Foot."

Inverted Pentagram:
Some religious and spiritual groups have used the inverted pentacle. During the 20th century, Satanists inverted the upright pentacle and adopted it as their own symbol. However, the symbol is most commonly shown with the head of a goat within the pentagram as shown below.

Sigl of Baphomet:
The inverted pentacle with a goat's head is called the Sigl of Baphomet. It has also been called the Black Goat, Devil's Goat, Goat Head, Goat of Mendes, and Judas Goat.

The five vertices were also used to represent the five classical elements:

• Water
• Earth
• Fire
• Idea or "a divine thing"
• Air

It is also said to represent the 5 vowels of the English language.. It was supposed to have been the main symbol for the Olympic games but was changed at the very last moment to give way for the “Five rings”..

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It all looks like it just happened yest.. But alas, an year has went past.. I cant give a unit for this speed like km/hr or m/sec or knots.. This is something way beyond!!! Something which plays in the mind and it now beckons me that I m an year old after completing my under graduate life..

From now on We are at a stage where we are no longer with the fresher tag.. We are branded old animals for interviews.. The year 2008 which went past was not an year to remember for the global markets.. It saw many companies crumble like a pack of cards.. I m not goin to discuss about the global scenario but my own..

I would like to trace my steps a little back to the year 2007.. Precisely June 2007.. That was when we were banging our heads to get some placement in some company.. Our most important priority being that we dont want to be stranded after college gets over.. A good salary in some decent company was the need for the day.. There was a frantic search for yesteryear papers, having group studies etc etc.. The companies came floodin in and the first was mine.. TCS.. We were prayin all gods to open atleast their corner eye so that we could get a job..

When I think abt that now I m simply amazed looking at my current priorities.. The job which I very badly needed jus an year back is not even in my scheme of things and I feel I m jus hanging on to it bcos I have nothing else to hold on to!!!! How ironic!!! Our priorities get changed in an year let alone hrs..

The placement exams went ok but my interview was horrible to say the least.. The heavy rain that day only added to my misery.. After that poor interview I made all efforts to collect papers for the next exam.. I was dead sure that TCS will flunk.. But it came as a huge shock to see my name in the selected list.. I went gaga over it and was happy that I was going to earn.. My parents n relatives were extremely happy that I was in the Tata family.. I was totally unaware of the impact the Tatas made.. And so I was virtually blank abt everythin.. I knew nothing abt their legacy, nothing abt their philanthropic side and nothing abt coding too.. The journey to trivandrum had been an eye opener for me for many unknown reasons.. Primarily being that I began to enjoy my solitude.. And a month there was enough for me to learn the nightmares in IT sector.. When I came home I was in half ..

Then came second phase and it was an even bigger nightmare.. That was the time I came to the conclusion that Trivandrum was heaven.. It is said that we realize the value of a thing only when its not there with you.. How true!! I dont miss the buildings or the faculty there but I do definitely miss the aloo parathas for 10 bucks and a super heavy meal with a juice to finish for just 35 bucks.. Oh my god.. It was definitely the place for me to savor the food!!!

Now then TCS was a only a part in the last year and there is more to the story.. Many new friends to cherish, many hearts joined, a few got split, many were tryin their shot again at masters etc etc.. In short it was nothing of entertainment!!!

I must admit the fact that I have been under a lot of "the self-realization" scanner for the year.. Some things must be said to you to change you, some things must be seen to change, some things must be done to change and, not but not the least, some things must be felt to change.. I came to understand the real essence only now.. And I m very thankful for it.. So I don't pressurize myself by forcing others to do which they don't want to do.. I no longer want my stuff my ideas unto others and put make up for them..

I have gotten in the mood to do service to people.. There are many in need.. I would like to do somethin was others.. I would like to make as many people happy as possible.. I would definitely strive for it.. I don't mean off here that I do.. its jus that I would like u too to join hands and make big things..

These are the few things I learnt:
• Do wat u like to do.. If u feel like u will get happiness only by jumping off from a cliff.. please do that.. Bcos even if u get hurt u will learn to live with it with happiness and the consciousness that it was self inflicted will be etched in ur memory.. On the other hand, even if others mistakenly scratch u, u will feel like he has committed a sin.. So its best to do wat u like to do..
• Watch a lot of movies and improve creativity.. Be imaginative..
• Read hell a lot of books and get acquainted with the evergreen realm..
• Be helpful anytime..
• There is nothing u r goin to take to ur grave.. So give to others and be happy with ur share.. The happiness got cannot be explained.. It can only be felt..
• Eat ur fav dishes and try new ones.. They definitely stimulate u..
• Keep bird watching.. No matter what the opp thinks of u.. it's a secret pleasure..
• Work hard, party hard, show ur face to the lord, visit places, gift someone, talk non stop over the phone(hope u pay t bill for it)

The above things may be done by u even now and may ask wats new in it?? You, the person in You is waiting to rejoice.

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It can be easily said that a man is alive on earth only bcos of his dreams.. Only to live his dream.. It is the pleasure of searching and the pleasure of adventure that fuels us..

The blood and veins in our body may only provide physical stability… But its only our soul and dreams that make us walk the red carpet..

When we were young our dreams explode inside us with supreme force.. We start to enjoy the journey, which was once torturous, and wait with anxious eyes to the result.. We will be courageous at that time but we haven’t yet learned how to fight. With great effort , we learn how to fight, but by then we no longer have the courage to go into combat.. So we turn against ourselves and do battle within.. We become our won worst enemy.. We say that our dreams were childish, or too difficult to realize, or the result of our not having known enough about life.. We kill our dreams because we are afraid to fight the good fight..

We never realize that dreams come to us only bcos our heart realizes that it has got the potential to fulfill it.. It is only the perception that demolishes us.. Our own hazy attitude and the lack of courage only hasten the demolition..

Good fight is not the one which was fought in battles centuries ago.. It’s the fight that we put up for our dreams.. At the start, the road is rough and we begin to doubt if the road taken by us is right.. Once the turbulence is no long, both our soul and mind begin to accept the dreams whole heartedly.. That’s when our life becomes like a kite happily flying in the sea breeze.. W begin to like ourselves and also those around us.. We live a honeymoon life.. The wind feels like a lullaby and we begin to experience heaven in front of our eyes..

Life will be going like a highway like an unaltered stretch.. Then without our knowledge comes a sudden screeching halt.. Before we come to terms on what happened, we see our dreams shattered and our desires frustrated.. We feel lost and we think tat it is the end of the road.. It is not the end but only a bend.. We must understand that life doesn’t take the aerial route always.. We must dust ourselves and continue our dreams.. Only when we cease to dream our soul dies!!

How does a dream die??? Well, there are 3 symptoms..

• Lack of time
• Our certainities
• Peace

The first of all is “Lack of time”.. We begin to say this and lose track of what we actually wanted.. The busiest ppl in this people have time enough to do everything.. It is only those who do nothin r always tired and pay no attention to the little amount of work they are required to do.. They complain constantly that the day is short.. The truth is they are afraid to fight the good fight..

The second symptom lies in "Our Certainities".. We don’t want to see life as a grand adventure and we begin to think of ourselves as wise and fair and correct in asking so little of life.. We confine ourselves to the negative side of things.. We begin to say “The glass is half empty” and not “The glass is half full”.. We see only the great defeats and not the great victories.. We don’t see the pleasure of enjoying the fight but only look for reasons to escape it..

And the final symptom of the passing of our dreams is "Peace".. Life becomes a sunday afternoon and we ask for nothing grand.. We cease to demand anything more than we are wiling to give.. In that state, we think of ourselves as being mature; We put aside our fantasies of our youth, and we seek personal and professional achievement. We are surprised when ppl our age say that they still want this or that out of life.. But really, deep in our hearts, we know that what has happened is that we have renounced the battle for our dreams.. When we renounce our dreams and find peace, we go thro a short period of tranquility.. but the dead dreams begin to rot within us and to infect our entire being.. We become cruel to those around us, and then we begin to direct this cruelty against ourselves.. that’s when illness and psychoses arises.. What we sought to avoid in combat- disappointment and defeat- come upon us bcos of our cowardice.. and one fine day, the dead, spoiled dreams make it difficult to breathe, and we actually seek death.. It is death that frees us from our certainities, from our work, and from that terrible peace of our Sunday afternoons..

Keep your dreams alive at all times and at all costs.. You know there is something called attitude and passion. There are times when there is nothing good in life, but that phase is very temporary. Life will always bring you down on your knees and will hit you hard to an extent that you will start hating it. The only things that let you survive are your dreams and passion. And if you don't survive and you give up, you'll be one of the many mediocres living in the world without any purpose. Happiness, sadness, boredom, smiles, tears are all temporary things but if you keep the fire of passion burning inside you, you will always get what you want.

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There will be times when you would despair

There would be times when you feel defeated

There will be times when you feel rejected

Hold your thoughts and ponder

Wait a while and remember

Don't judge yourself from a day's experience

For what you are today, was not made in a day

A failure is a way, I believe

To see yourself in a different light

In a different perspective, through your own inner eyes

You rejoice in success

You analyze in failure

For failure is a queer teacher, it will teach you things the hard way

It won't facilitate, it won't accentuate,

It will hit you hard in your face

But if you get bogged down, give up or simply stop

Do it at your own risk, kill yourself, albeit in parts

They can take away an opportunity, they can take away a chance

They may take away the world from you, and make you penniless

And you are down and out unless

You see with your inner eyes

The potential, the passion, the talent, the energy, the enthusiasm

The spirit, the will and most importantly the faith.

You will see yourself

In a totally different light

For these are the things

No one can take away, no one can change

No one can tamper, no one can suppress

Because this is all what you are about.

 

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It was a very hot may afternoon in my native and almost all my family members were in temple for a function.. Lunch jus got over and people were moving here and there.. The crowd was huge and with the place being small, it got suffocated.. I was waiting to go home.. I was tired because of the midnight journey and I was sitting with my back to the pillar.. Not many were sittin around me.. My sister sat straight opposite to me and some old people around.. I think I jus closed my eyes for 2min and when I opened everythin around me seemed to hav changed.. I mean I was not in some wonderland, but a good lookin gal in yellow chudidhar seemed to capture all the attention.. I jus kept watchin her solemn eyes which were full of myriad emotions, her fairness which would make actress Nadhiya cringe, her homeliness which would surely topple Sneha.. Only after a few min did I realize that nothing much had changed except for her.. It was only my perception that had changed.. She was sittin beside a young kid feeding him.. She was so beautiful.. She looked like she must be doing her under graduation.. But her age was defying it.. She had a loneliness in her which I liked the most.. To be terse and realistic, she was poetic.. I dunno if she even glanced at me.. But I must have made more than a few deliberate ones..

I wondered if she looked good to my eyes alone or to others eyes too.. Whom to ask, Whom to ask, Whom to ask.. Hmmm.. I just realized my sister would suit the bill.. “Hey sis, does the gal beside you look good??” And surprise surprise she said “Yes, of course..” Wow.. Yuppee… I was jumpin in the air.. Thank god I was not hallucinating!!!!

I was lookin at her for a few min when my dad called us to pack for home.. Jus a few min back I was longing to get back home but now I was totally reluctant.. I couldn’t buy time since everyone got on to the car.. With a disappointment got in the car and was wonderin what a gal she was, she suited my height, my age, my taste, my family (since she too being a chettiar), and what more she suited all my perfect description of a gal.. How come I got everythin right, somewhere something must be wrong.. I thought I was missin something.. Its very rare to find wat we like very soon.. If it comes to us soon we better check the track we are on bcos we may miss some link.. Nothin comes for free in this world.. It must have some catch..

Our car came to a screeching halt jus outside the gates of the temple to worship another god there.. And almost that same moment my heart beat also came to a sandy stop.. Wat hav I been doin so long!!! Holy god!!!

The biggest problem in chettiar family is the tradition that is being followed.. All chettiars are split into 9 temples.. When u meet someone from the same temple, he/she becomes ur own brother/sister.. The gal whom you goin to marry must necessarily be from any of the other 8 temples..

With she coming to the temple today I had a very bad feelin in my stomach.. So now where to clear this naggin doubt.. Whom to ask, Whom to ask, Whom to ask.. Hmmm.. My mother was walkin in front of me and a few uncles of mine up front.. I jus casually asked “Are the people here from the same temple or different temple??”.. My mother added to my dismay by sayin “Yes”.. I felt I had a thorn in my throat.. I dunno how I was feelin.. I was dejected, disappointed, exasperated!!!!

Jus then a person nearby who was a close relation of mine said that I must be appreciated for askin.. She said so bcos the tradition was dyin and that she felt that I had taken the extra care to know.. She appreciated me for it.. Only my sister and I know why I took that extra care!!!!!

She came like the wind and went like the wind…

I was messagin my frnd abt my sorry state of affairs and was venting my emotions on why am I not lucky enough??? I hav been seein a sister for so long..!!!

That night I had a train to catch and in the evenin nothing hpnd much except for my continual disappointment.. Though for the fact that I dint speak a letter to her and I dint no who the heck she was, I was unusually subdued.. I mean like I hav seen many good lookin girls but no one came as close as her to match all of it.. So near yet so far..

Once we boarded the train, I asked my mother again why was there so much of rush today in temple than ever before.. She said that two groups of people had come today..

What 2??? 2??? There should be only 1!!!! Hmmm.. I could see some light in my corner..

Seems like the other group of people were from a different back ground n that they may be from different temples too.. Only those who came from my native belonged to the same temple.. I was happy that it was not the end of the road, but only a bend in the road..

I may hav missed her today, but next time if I get a chance to meet her, I would go straight up to her confident and bold and ask “Excuse which temple do you belong to????”

If she says any temple other than mine… Oh my god.. I m already in disneyland!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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